𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝..⁣⁣

I received an email from him 

The subject line read “I have finally forgiven you.”

When I read this, I was furious…

“ME, YOU FORGIVE ME?”.

The audacity.

I felt my temperature rise

And finally.

All of this bottled up anger and resentment that I hadn’t allowed myself to feel for years..came pouring out like a flood.

As if I were the abusive one…

The one who treated him like he was lower than dirt..

The one whose actions and words bred doubt in him like it was a second job.

The one that broke him down till he didn't know who he was anymore..

The one who took his story.

Part of me wanted to delete the email and figure out how to block him…

But another part of me..  The one that was still connected to him... Wanted to keep reading.

So I did.

And sure enough.. 

The email was followed by

“You ruined mine and my family's lives.”

This hit me like a ton of bricks…I could not believe this is how he saw me after all those years..

I took a pause, a few deep breaths, and slowly allowed myself to feel my sacred emotions..

My sadness, my anger, my pain.. 

Shortly after..

This sudden yet deep realization took over me..

I realized that I had inevitably become the villain in his story..

No matter how hard I tried all those years not to become it..

To be good, to forgive, to let go and rise above time and time again even when it ate me up inside..

And even if I didn’t fully understand it then..

I knew in my heart that this was all a necessary yet unexpected part ot the process

Of coming back to the core of who I was

And a fuel to my purpose of helping visionary women remember who they are, too

I'm here to remind you that becoming the villain in someone else’s story 

It’s part of your sacred remembrance.. 

It’s part of being everything that you are and fully embracing it despite not being liked.

It’s part of loving yourself so deeply that you inevitably choose yourself no matter what or who..even if that means walking away 

It’s part of creating a movement, a mission, and following a purpose that is bigger than your pain 

But first, you have to break out of the good girl patterning and embrace being the villain in someone else’s story.. 

Why?

Because it's part of your legacy…

And rising to meet the full spectrum of your power 

Here is to making peace with being the villain that no one expected, but the world deeply needs..

𝘈𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴,⁣⁣

⁣⁣𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶, ⁣⁣

𝘈𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘢- 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘳, 𝘢𝘬𝘢 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘷𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘯